Why a blog?

I was diagnosed with cancer in 2007 and soon began journaling my walk in our local paper and continuing my dream to be a writer. You meet me in between taxing kids to and fro, baking cupcakes, feeding chickens, running up and down my dirt road, fishing, sweeping the floors, stuffing the clean laundry in bathroom cabinets, researching how to get a book published, studying my next Bible Study lesson, or perhaps sitting on my back porch in the country watching my husband's deer and my purple martins. To say I am blessed is only the beginning!















Tuesday, September 25, 2012

The day the peas fell

I have been reading the book One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. It is a life strategy to give thanks daily for everything and to keep your mind in the moment by recognizing life's blessings. This is the kind of book that is so amazing that I am intentionally reading it slowly. It is like a piece of chocolate and I have to savor each page. The idea in the book is to make a list of 1000 gifts. Mine today include having fun with homework, great coffee, Bible study, the fact that lunches are packed, my job, and the list goes on and on. Maybe at the top of my list is wrestling with Bosque on the trampoline! We love it! It makes me think of an incident a few days ago. I spilled the bowl of peas and Bosque was so excited because he hates them! If he was participating in my 1000 gifts experiment, I am sure he would have listed... The peas falling! Count blessings today! Recognizing gifts from God ushers you into a spirit of thanksgiving and JOY follows!

30 days

It dawned on me early yesterday morning that my family has mastered the basics of the 2012 school year. We have all adjusted well. The Lord impressed upon my heart that the routines were down and it was time for me to do a little more. (as if that is even humanly possible). The MORE was simple: a notecard for each of my kids with one need on it and a scripture to apply to this need. This type of prayer is intentional! This type of prayer does not mean praying just when the thought pops up or when the issue comes up. It is an every morning, out loud thing!! The Lord wants us to use His word and apply it to every aspect of our lives! Join me and give it 30 days. Trust the Lord to work based on His word. It does not return void!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Random in the routine

When I was a kid, and especially a young teen, one of our favorite ways to "cut-up" in town was to perform a Chinese Fire drill.  We used to pile out of Linda Emmon's van or anyone else that would tote us around town, make a circle around our parked vehicle as fast as we could and then jump back in.  It was great fun and always made us laugh!  I don't even know if really "this" was a proper Chinese Fire drill, but we called it one and we so enjoyed it!

I have been telling my kids that they should try a Chinese Fire drill in the morning after we drop of Banner at the Jr. High just for fun.  Banner is way too on task and wants to be at school too early, so she would not want to be an active participant in our morning silliness. 

Today Brazos and Blaise took me up on the offer.  Bosque would have, but his shoes were not on yet as usual!  We were on a little side street over by the high school.  I stopped, threw the car in park, and they jumped out.  They made their lap around the car in about six seconds and jumped back in.  We giggled and were off again on our way to school. 

Watching them have some random fun was fun to me!  Yes, it does not take much to excite me.  I am labeling this type of activity "RANDOM in the ROUTINE."  I think we all need more of it! Our backpacks are always laid out in the floor, shoes in the right baskets, and lunches are typically made on time; therefore, I have taught my kids how to live an organized and routine life.  Maybe now we need to add in some random. 

My morning made me think of my favorite verse in Psalms 16:11 "You will fill me with joy in your presence."  Ask the Lord to fill you with JOY!  Hang out with Him, read your Bible, spend some time in prayer, open your eyes to your many blessings, and prepare to giggle, laugh, and have some fun.  He is the author of JOY.   JOY is all over us when we follow JESUS and live in His presence.  JOY is contagious.  I want more of it.  What about you?

Today I found JOY while watching my kiddos in a total random activity.  We put some random in the routine and this busy Mom needed it.  Thank you, Lord!

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Spring Break Observations

I headed to the front porch one morning this week to enjoy my coffee, listen to the martins up and about already making their familiar and comforting noise, and to just take it all in with the lake in view. It was so beautiful and peaceful. I knew soon the activity would begin and not cease again until bedtime at 11 or 12 since Spring Break gets us in late-night movie mode right from the jump. I rocked back and forth in my chair and thanked God for the stillness and beauty. Right about the time that I took a deep breath and thanked the Lord for the peace in my life and peace in my "land" at home, a chicken startled me and ran right past my feet across the porch. We only have four chickens at the moment who have managed to survive out here in the country, so it was all the more funny to me that just one single one was on a mission all by itself. He/she/whatever it was didn't even pause to look at me and see if I had any bread to throw its way, it just scampered by...what is the verb here I should use for a chicken movement? Ah, I am not sure! I laughed out loud because is was like the Lord was showing me that right about the time I settle in and think life will be calm and quiet, that I better be ready. Because even for those of us who believe in Him and try to live our lives in a way to please Him, life will have ups and downs and keep us on our toes. I really should say life will keep us on our knees no matter what! However, that does not worry me! I thought of the verse in John 16:33 that says "In this world you will have trouble, but take heart! I have overcome the world."





I also found myself laughing this week at another kind of bird that lives here on our premises. We also have a few guineas that call this place home. They run around here from dusk to dawn throwing a FIT and fussing at each other. Lord forgive me for this and forgive me if I offend any members of my sex, FEMALES, but our guineas remind me of a group of women on the loose! I watched them one day last summer all "laying out" in the front yard. It was like they were sunning their feathers. After 10 or 15 minutes of total peace, quiet, and stillness, one of them stood up, started squawking, and got the rest of them all up immediately in a total fuss! They do that all day. The times of walking peacefully are always interrupted by one of them deciding to be louder than the others and seemingly pestering one of the crowd until the one provoked fights back. It is a funny sight to see and even funnier to listen to. Now, how this relates to women...I better say right away that I am not perfect at all, because WE women sure can get excited over the littlest thing and then start yapping and get a whole crowd in a fussy over a variety or topics and ideas. Enough said! There are so many verses about unity. Do a search in your Bible and discover how and why we should not get in a fuss so often! (AND....Oh, I threw at least two fits last night...not at other women, but at my family. I was such a guinea!)





My final thought has grown from an observation from my time with our dog, Belle. She is a blond lab who thinks she is our fifth child around here. Belle loves to play fetch! Love is not a strong enough word! She lives and breathes to play fetch! She sleeps at times with one of her blue balls in her mouth. Belle is so persistent. She never gives up! She will jump up on the trampoline if we are all up there and let the ball fall out her mouth hoping someone will throw the ball for her and then she leaps off. Today I was swinging with Blaise and every time that I was up in the air and Belle could, she would place her ball right in the path of my swing and then I would panic and have to put the brakes on so I did not hit her as I came back down in the air. I have spent some time in my flowerbeds or should we say "weed beds" and Belle even carefully places her ball in my trash bucket full of weeds. Like I said, she does not give up! She puts the P in persistent. I realized one day last week that I needed a few lessons from Belle! I do not need to give up with what I know the Word says and with what the Lord has promised me for those around me. Hebrews 12:1 is one of my favs. It says "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked our for us!" Don't give up today, hang in there, and do not walk, but RUN to Jesus!

Monday, January 16, 2012

Just one job....

I asked my three children that were at home yesterday to please do one job for me and then to pick up their rooms. Banner quickly knocked out the dishes and got her room back in order. Blaise moved through 4 or 5 jobs...she did a few of the windows, vaccuumed a bit, and even reminded me that one job she did was getting me a new roll of paper towels. That one cracked me up!

Bosque thought he had mastered the art of helping me and also doing what he loves to do. He asked if he could watch t.v. in my bed and do the laundry on every commercial. I agreed. When I finised a few of my jobs, I checked back with him to see how he was progressing. I saw a pile of laundry still on the bed and then one pile seperated that had in it his Peterson jersey and one red Hurley t-shirt. I said, "Bosque, how is the laundry going."

He looked up, sat up actually and said these words..."Now, Mom, on the first commercial I forgot to start. I did these TWO shirts of mine on the second set of commercials, and then on the third ones...I had to go to to the bathroom. I am waiting on the next one now to really get started." When he managed to get out that last bit about his future plans, he laid back down.

Oh, I could blog for days about the different personalities of my children or their very special motivations in life, but that is not what Bosque's lists of excuses reminded me of. He reminded me of ME...He reminded me of how adults function in the Kingdom of God!

How many times do I put things off that should be taken care of? Now, please understand that I am not talking about the fact that we just yesterday took the Christmas wreath off of the front gate or the fact that I have a thank-you that I have needed to mail for over a week. I am talking about putting off things that really matter!

I know a friend who is very burdened by unforgiveness and it may be time for this person to claim a verse, date it, pray it, accept God's grace, and then even go to that person and say the bitterness has been released. When the negative and even toxic feeling of unforvineness comes back, they will have a verse to pray that includes a PROMISE from the Word of God that with Him all things are possible and that does include FORGIVENESS!

I often give the Lord most of my life, but put off dealing with and withold just a little bit for my own fleshly desires. Our walk with the Lord can not be like a recipe that says to withold one cup of the mixture for later. We can not pick and choose what we offer to the Lord and ask Him to help us with it, but then keep part of our sin....just putting off obedience. If your heart has been searched and an issue has a red flag by it delivered straight from the Holy Spirit, then deal with it sooner instead of later.

I don't know what it is for you today...maybe a phone call to an old friend, a visit to someone who has been on your mind, or an afternoon spent reading your Bible instead of watching another old movie, but do not put off the Lord's work. He could do it all Himself, but He chooses to use US! That blows my mind everytime.

We must listen and obey today. I love this verse in Matthew 13:14. Jesus says to the disciples "You will be ever hearing but never understanding; you will be ever seeing but never perceiving."

I want to live my life in a way that lets Jesus Christ know I GET IT! I want to walk with Him daily and say in my spirit...Jesus, OK, I get what you are telling me to do and YES...I will do it!
I will not wait until...
the next commercial,
the next day I have off of work,
until my house is clean,
my kids are bigger,
I have a different job or a promotion,
my spouse is ready to do it with me,
this semester is finished in college,
the cows are worked,
I get that other bill paid off,
until I get the yard mowed or the garden plowed,
or when that person comes to me and makes it right.
I GET WHAT YOU ARE SAYING LORD,
and Yes,
I will do it!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

HOPE

We did rock, paper, scissors, or something a few weeks ago to see who would go out in the rain right before dark to feed the "shop" cats and put up the chickens. I don't even remember if I played or not, but I won the honor of an evening walk. On my way back from the shop, I heard a bird still singing, chirping, whatever you want to call it even though the rest of our little chunk of land here seemed to be going to bed for the night.

The little bird made me smile. (I am a self-confessed bird nerd anyway and have been known to talk to my purple martins and even understand them when they answer back. I promise you they still knew me the year I was half-bald from my chemotherapy when I walked out to welcome them back home in late February. They knew it was me!!!)

Why did the bird make me smile? I could not even see it. I did stop in the rain and look back into the trees for it, but I could not find it. I questioned my sanity until I heard it again because it was no where in sight. The sweet bird reminded me of the HOPE we have when we know the Lord in a real, personal way.

I thought of the singing bird again today when we read our Jesse Tree Devotional book and put the new ornaments on our Jesse Tree. It was day 13 (yes, we are behind a bit) about the green shoot from the stump of Jesse. This devotional series traces the lineage of the birth of Jesus back to creation. The really cool thing is that the lineage does not only need to be traced BACK. It is still going forward daily as well. We can write our name in the line too when we accept the free gift of grace and salvation. His family line is not complete. It is not only about a baby born many years ago and a nice story to read over the holidays. What happened in that stable was a gift that is for us to take part in now and that is where the HOPE comes from!

The stump of mentioned in Isaiah 11:1-5 is Jesse. Think about an old, dead stump. That is really the human race without a close walk with the Lord and without salvation. The stump's life is over. It is dead. There is nothing pretty about it. Does the story end there? No, the green shoot is Jesus. He is life. He is the second chance no matter how many mistakes you have made and how bad life may be, Jesus was born for you. He is the gift of Christmas and is not just a gift of Christmas pasts. Jesus is the promise that even when we see failing economies, more and more cancer, families split up at Christmas, and children in need, there is new life and there is HOPE! Jesus is the bird that still sings when it is nearly dark. Jesus is the bulb hidden deep in my flower bed just waiting to bloom again in the spring. It will happen! There is life even in the midst of the dead weeds and leaves that need to be raked.

If you look up today and you see your life kind of as a dead stump, please know that there is a fresh, green shoot ready to bloom. There is HOPE and we may not always be able to find happy, but we can find JOY. He was born in a manger, crucified, and rose again. He is not finished! You may be, but He is not. Go and forgive today. Go and give today. Go and tell today. Do not sit at your window and stare at all that has not been or all that went wrong, there is a new thing going on today everyone can be a part of it!

This "thing" is Christmas.
It is the birthday of our KING.
His name is JESUS.
He is HOPE!
Do you know Him?

Monday, December 19, 2011

The next big thing...

If you are the mountain type, I want you to imagine a really gigantic mountain in front of you. If you need a sports example, put the biggest, strongest opponent you have ever faced in your path. For me, I am a simple hands-on kind of girl and I use my hands so much when I talk, that I need to see this visual not only in my mind, but with the use of my hands. The Lord showed me this point a few days ago like this: My left hand is smack dab in front of my face, elbow bent, hand straight up in a vertical position, thumb facing me, top of my fingers at about the top of my head. This is the hand position you would have assumed as a kid if you were going to pretend like you were going to chop a board with your hand! You know that one....

The point of my lengthy description and several visuals is this: My next obstacle, my challenge of the day, month or year, or the next time that something in life seems like a GIANT, I am going to look at it differently. I am not going to focus on the what is next...what will happen....how will I get thought this one, but I am going to look BACK! I am not going to worry about how I will get OVER the mountain or get past my opponent. I will not let my attention go towards knocking down that arm that I am holding up straight in front of my face, but I am going to look on the left side of it. My thoughts will be on what has happened before the line, before the mountain or before I lined up a faced my giant on the field or court.

What look back? Because when we look back at the faithfulness of the Lord, we may just find the strength we need to go forward. I can see the grace of Jesus Christ all over my life leading up to this point. I have trusted Him with my salvation to name a biggie and so many little things along the way, so what makes me think that at the point of this next big "thing" that He will not do it again. That just does not make sense. My point exactly! When we are in panic mode, nothing does make sense. We need these reminders from the Word.

Psalms 116: 7 says "Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the Lord has been good to you."

Psalms 143:5 instructs us to look back and meditate on what the Lord has done. It says "I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done."

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, life has not always been a walk in the park or a bed of roses, but let me tell you...The Lord's hand has been all over my life and He is not going to take His hand off of my life! Yours either. So, I believe He begs us to take our hand off of the panic button and rest in all that HE HAS DONE!

Whether you are standing in front of a huge mountain or a tiny molehill, a wimpy linebacker your could flip with just one hand or the giant of your life, take this into your soul and begin your day saying this out loud:

"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you." Psalms 143:8

Trust the Lord. He will not let you down. If the road ahead does not look too bright, glance back over your shoulder at all He has done. He will see you through the next interview or job change, doctor's visit, final exam, break-up, late night visit with your challenging teen, or day with a dying loved one. You just need to remind yourself that things and people in this life may fail us, but HIS LOVE IS UNFAILING!